it's been too long

Almost a full year.  I don't know what happened.  I don't know why I gave up or stopped trying.  I guess I just got insecure and starting believing lies like "it doesn't matter if you write,"  "you're not a good writer," or "what's the point of a blog, you're so self-centered thinking someone would want to read about your life, struggles, or experiences."  I really need to lighten up and stop being so hard on myself.  I write for me and to connect with others who might be going through the same thing.  So often in this world I think we start to think no one else understands, cares, or has been through tough times.  The truth of the matter is that we all need to be a little more real with one another.  I need to stop believing all of those horrid lies and focus on truth.  The truth is my experiences matter.  My journey is important, because it's perfect and exactly how God wants it to be.  Whether I'm joyful or in tears it matters.  Another discouraging thought.  I'm an English teacher, and sometimes I don't care about grammar or rules.  I can't be writing a blog and have grammatical errors.  Well... i'm giving up on that concept.  Sometimes it's ok to just write and forget a comma or to capitalize i.  Life goes on.  i kinda like the fact that maybe i could just type my experiences and sometimes just break all the rules.  it's a bit freeing.

So, today i'm back.  it feels nice and it feels exciting.  in a way this blog keeps me accountable.  accountable to live for the moment, to love life, and to think deeply.  I hope this try lasts.

vids

This week seems to be video week. So many good videos are making me laugh, cry, praise, and really just enjoy life this week... I thought I'd share them :)

JOY

JMU

So many emotions

it's only wednesday

Also, Partners on CBS, monday nights :) It's literally hilarious!

birthday

23.  When I say how old I am it makes me seem old, but I don't feel old at all.  I guess that's just how it's going to be from now on.  It was a beautiful weekend, absolutely beautiful.  It's finally Fall, and I'm obsessed with everything there is to do.  Pumpkin EVERYTHING!  A Fall bucket list is coming soon :)  In the meantime here are some pictures from my birthday weekend.

Jeremy took me to a vineyard, Keswick vineyard.  We sat on the hill and had a picnic... with this view, who could complain.

 Thank you Martins for the RANDOM assortment of snacks. 

 He makes me so happy :) I love falling more and more in love with him.

 Kind of really impressed with Jeremy's wrapping skills.

These are the most delicious substance I have EVER put in my mouth! I'm not kidding! Want the recipe? check out Bake at 350.  This blog has so many recipes! 

My birthday was simple yet beauty FULL.

Thank you all for all the wishes, cards, and love! It was a wonderful day!