home.

When I look back on the summer I am overwhelmed with the great about of blessing, trials, and adventure it has shown me.  I can't believe that I even took a class in May.  It feels like an eternity ago that I was graduating from JMU.  I prayed for friends, and I got them. I have had such good and deep conversation.  I had so much fun with the boys I have been nannying.  I can't believe it is my last day with thursday.  crazy.  This summer has been incredibly good to me, and I am thankful for it.  When I reflect back I do, however, crave one feeling.  comfort.  I have been pushed way out of my comfort zone, which it good, and that is what the Lord calls us to do.  We have to rely on him when we are uncomfortable.  so in that way it's good.  but it's exhausting.  I long for a couple hours a day of comfort.  maybe it's the introvert in me, but a few hours a day to sit at home alone, i crave it just as much as i crave mexican food, only mexican is a lot easier to get it seems.

I started writing this post a week ago, but it all just seemed to be so negative that I decided that I would just give up on it and try and just think of the blessing and positive things in my life.  I feel, however, that this is something that has been a part of my for so long that it has started to consume my mind.  I want a home.  The smell, the feel, the mess, the colors, the memories, the conversations, the comfort.  A place to call my own.  But right now, that is not what the Lord has for me.  It's something that I need to seek him in, because honestly we should always crave home.  No matter how hard we try to make own home on this earth; we were created for so much more.  Our home is found in heaven.  I don't really know what else to say.. it's just a part of life.  but i choose to be thankful. no matter where I am.